My mind is in so many places as I begin to only approach the summer before attending Lee University. I cannot seem to settle on anything. Emotions, decisions, anything. For one, I am SO excited to be going to Lee next year, but I am also SO nervous and apprehensive about going to Lee next year.
I have this strangely absurd anxiety in which I feel like I am still in school and have a late paper or an exam soon. I suppose that will only go away with time.
I have about a million books that I want to read, which never happens to me because I hate reading, but recently I have found some strange love for it. The top three books I am attempting to complete are, The Circle Maker, Extremely Loud and Incredibly Close, and Love Comes Softly. However, I would also like to read the Hunger Games series as well as the rest of the Love Comes Softly saga.
While I am trying to read books, I am also trying to write books. I have been writing since I cannot remember, but I have never been able to finish a story because either a few things got lost in the moving of them, or I thought of another story and have not come back. I would like to say I completed at least one story before I go to school, but that does not seem likely.
I am so anxious to discover who my roommate is. I just want to check off everything on my list now, but there are a few things that I must wait for. Like, I would like to see what things my roommate all ready has before I go buying everything, but I do not find out who my roommate is until July. On top of that most stores around here do not get their college things until July.
I have recently been trying to take up responsibilities that I have never taken up before, like, cleaning and taking care of my ENTIRE house, not just my bedroom. This action was brought on by the encouragement of a wednesday night youth group meeting in which my pastor talked on how we should respect our authority, especially if our authority has been anointed by God. He pointed out that God anoints our parents to us. Yes, some fall short of God's plans, but we should respect His decision by respecting our anointed authorities (our parents) unless what they are trying to get us to do is harmful. Also, I was hoping that an added benefit would be that God would see my hard work, and bless me with a job. I desperately need a job, and I am finding no luck. I have two months to come up with $12,000, and no way of doing so. I have faced the reality that I will have to take out a loan. I have tried applying to scholarships, but so far, no luck. Plus, I have run out of places to find them. If you know of any places, please let me know. Thank you! I have applied to so many places, and my ideal job would be at Dick's Sporting Goods, or Regal Cinemas, but so far I have heard nothing from anyone. I have been having terrible luck. When I go to stores and ask for an application they say I need to find it online. Then I go home and search for hours on their website to try and find the application. Then once I do, I hear nothing back. It seems like these days applications mean nothing anyone. You have to know someone to be employed. Almost everyone I know that has a job knows someone who works where they work that got them the job. It is so disappointing, but I will not give up. After all, I may be the one who slips through the cracks, and defies all odds. I know God will put me in the right place, but God, if you could do that soon it'd be great. :)
Until then, I am busy with other things, other than attempting to take care of the house. I want to continue trying to learn guitar and drums. I want to continue trying to write songs, as well as my books and movie scripts. I want to do so many things. I want to speak again at church, and this time feel like I did well. I want to perform at church again. I want to do SO much. Sometimes I look at the time I have before I go to Lee and it seems SO long! Sometimes I look at it and think, "How am I suppose to do anything in such little time?" Like I said, my mind is ALL OVER THE PLACE.
Overall, I just wanted to express the way I felt right now, and I am hoping that I in someway helped someone and that someone else feels this way as well.
College Assignment #2
Try to stay relaxed, DO NOT PANIC! It will all be okay. Just be on top of things. Stay organized. If you are not, develop a better system. If you have no system, DEVELOP ONE, trust me it helps. Stay in touch with your future roommate once you know who it is. Make sure that no one is spending money to get something the other one has. Money is tight right now, and there is no reason to spend money on unneeded items. Overall, just relax and try and enjoy this time. Spend time with those you love and set up great, strong relationships so that when you move miles away, you still have people you can count on! Good luck!
Grade of Life:
This is worth a small percentage of your grade. Though it can help you immensely, it will not determine your outcome by so much that you fail if you do not complete. However, if you learn to stay calm and on top of things now, things later in life will come much easier than if you fail to do so.
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