Day Seven

Hey guys, sorry I have not been writing. I just have not found anything interesting enough to tell you. I have my first writing and reading assignments, but they are all pretty easy. I was working with Brenda yesterday on her first paper! She's actually not bad at it. Then we went and did a light one hour, unplanned, work out. We are also going to workout today.

I got a care package yesterday from my parents. It has a lot of food!

Sorry if things seem broken up on here, but I am trying to write in between events so that I do not forget any details.

So far all of my classes are easy, but being in college before, I know that that is only an inception, and my classes will become more difficult. I have not really made many friends quite yet. It does not really bother me though. I have met a few people, my roommate and suite mates, my core friends from home's roommates and suit mates, but that is pretty much it.

Like I said, Brenda and I worked out for our first time yesterday! It was amazing! It felt so great afterwards! Tonight we are going to meet up after her last class for pictures, dinner, homework, and then more working out! I am so excited! To all of you who sent mail or are hoping I am sending you mail, I have written letters it just cost a little bit to send stuff so I have to raise money before I can send you something. Sorry. See you soon!





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Fourth Day

Hey guys. Things are getting a little better. This morning I woke up early so I decided to get some things done. I went to the university store but they ended up not having what I needed. So I went to go get my P.O. box number. Turns out that was a great idea because those who went later in the day had to wait almost two hours to get their's. So later when Victoria and Rebekah went to get their's I mailed my first envelope. Also my roommate and Rebekah's roommate Jessie decided to go to Walmart and asked me to join. I did so I could get an expo eraser, what I was looking for earlier.

I ate at the cafeteria and had A TON of food! It is so much better than I thought!

Then we went to hang in my dorm, Rebekah, her roommate Jessie, my roommate Laura, and Victoria. We watched some of FRIENDS season eight. Turns out Jessie and Laura both love FRIENDS! Yeah! It also turns out Laura is also partially lactose intolerant! Now I am chilling in the lounge waiting for my family to skype me. Though it is kicking up a little it is still a little uneventful. Sorry... Talk to you guys later!

I also have like a million bug bites up and down my arms!





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Third Day

Okay, so things are starting to get a little rough. I have to say my final goodbye to my Dad and it's going to be really hard. Last night I realized how much I am going to miss him, and how much I actually rely on my parents. I am starting to get these random bursts of emotion and I am not sure how to handle it.

Today we have to go to a required Deke Day event. It's a thing where everyone goes out to serve. I am excited and nervous all at the same time. I am excited because I love serving. I am nervous because I have a stomach condition that has been acting up lately and I am afraid that there will be no opportunity to go to the bathroom there if something were to happen.

Some of my friends are going to church this morning. However, I am not because I want to say goodbye to my dad. So once he leaves I was planning on doing a devotion.

We haven't gotten our P.O. box assignments and won't be able to until monday. This frustrating because everyone back home wants me to give it to them.

Lately, I have been reading up on politics. I figure that since this is my first year voting I should know about the candidates. I know, that I am probably a little late, but I think I will be fine.

Anyways, I don't really have much more to say. I will see you guys later. Bye!




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Second Night

So this is my second night at Lee. I have to make this quick because it's late and my roommate is asleep. Things were rocky at first with my roommate, but I think it is all going to work out. I have lofted my bed, which saves A TON of space, however I am high up and afraid of falling so I am investing in a railing since I am known for moving in my sleep. Nothing too interesting has happened yet. I will try and post more tomorrow morning. Goodnight! :)




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30 Days Until Lee University!

There are 30 days left until I head down to Lee University! I cannot wait! I am so far beyond excitement. All I can think about is moving in. Meeting my roommate. Starting classes. My body is still in Maryland, but my mind is in Tennessee. Because of this my soul is in so much frustration and anxiety. All I want to do is be in TENNESSEE. Haha. :) 

I feel like a child waiting for Christmas. My birthday was a few days ago, and besides the fact that my friend threw me an amazing surprise birthday party with those I love, I have been looking more forward to moving in than I did my own birthday. I just keep playing scenarios in my head of what I am going to do. I had a dream last night about moving in and meeting my roommate. I have already begun packing. My room is full of college stuff on one side and yard sale stuff on the other. 

A friend of mine and I are throwing a yard sale in order to earn money. I really need financial help. I have been doing small odd jobs in order to get money, but they are not going to get me anywhere near where I need to be financially. Once I get to Tennessee I am going to get an actual semi-stable (because no young adult/teenage job is stable) to help gain money for tuition. I am thinking about getting a job on campus (or at least trying to because I hear it is difficult) because the employer automatically takes a part of your pay and puts it towards your tuition. This way I have less of an opportunity to blow money away that I need to pay tuition. At this point I am looking at many loans, and lots of debt. But this is just a small price to pay in order to follow Gods plan. When I get most stressed about the situation is when I become the most excited. Because as many have reminded me God will provide, and when things seem the messiest, God is right there in the process of creating some amazing things yet to come if you will just hold on for a little bit longer. God would not have told me one day on a trip in Hashua that I need to leave Towson and go to Lee University, going against many that want me to stay in Towson, if He was just going to leave me hanging to dry. Logically and to this world moving to Lee makes ABSOLUTELY NO SENSE, but to God is makes PERFECT sense. And that is what I am going for God, and perfection. :) So though I am TERRIFIED, I will follow God and my destiny, and I plan to do so till the day I die. And one day when I believe that the objective is way too impossible I will remember my youth pastor and his wife, and how they left me in order to set an example. They left me to follow God's impossible objective in their life, because doing anything different would set a terrible example for me and my brothers and sisters in my youth group. If they stayed, knowing that moving was their calling, then one day when things get tough for me I would have nothing to look forward too. I am sad they are leaving, but I will remember them the most when times are hard. Thank you for setting such an amazing example Pastor Brian and Jacqueline! Go do some AMAZING things in Florida! 

I know this was a very random post, and I am sorry for that but I just needed to write some! :) I really cannot wait until I am writing to you guys everyday. Yes sometimes my posts will suck, because sometimes life is uneventful, but the dedication I will have will make up for it. I will try as hard as I can to write to you each day about everything that is going on in my life. See you next time! 

Brooke

College Assignment:

Facebook Groups:

I want to suggest that you get involved in your school's Facebook Groups if they have them. This will help calm your nerves some. However, I want to suggest that you hold off on some of the elements. Comment on things that intrigue your interest. Interact with others. But wait until you are there before you start friending people and starting your own interactive groups with others. Keep some things intriguing. Wait until you are there before you get to actually know people. This makes it exciting when you get there. What would be the point if you got there, but all ready knew everyone in the building? So get involved, but not too involved!






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Microwavable Love

First step to moving out! 

I know that last time I told you to wait and find out what your roommate has before you start buying stuff, but I found something for a great deal. I got my very own first microwave! For seven dollars. 

I know you can't really see it, but trust me it has all of the basics, and I am sure it will serve me well! I am so excited! 

All right, well I was just checking in and keeping you updated! See you later! 

College Assignment #3:

Following guidelines and rules is always a good decision. However, sometimes circumstances change. If you find something for a great price, get it while you got it! However, do not be too jumpy! Make sure you have a good product before you spend money, even if it is a steal. 

Grade Value: 

This is worth next to nothing of your grade. Consider it extra credit. For though it is good advice, it really will not effect you in the long run. 

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I'm Indecisive, I Can't Decide

My mind is in so many places as I begin to only approach the summer before attending Lee University. I cannot seem to settle on anything. Emotions, decisions, anything. For one, I am SO excited to be going to Lee next year, but I am also SO nervous and apprehensive about going to Lee next year. 

I have this strangely absurd anxiety in which I feel like I am still in school and have a late paper or an exam soon. I suppose that will only go away with time. 

I have about a million books that I want to read, which never happens to me because I hate reading, but recently I have found some strange love for it. The top three books I am attempting to complete are, The Circle Maker, Extremely Loud and Incredibly Close, and Love Comes Softly. However, I would also like to read the Hunger Games series as well as the rest of the Love Comes Softly saga. 

While I am trying to read books, I am also trying to write books. I have been writing since I cannot remember, but I have never been able to finish a story because either a few things got lost in the moving of them, or I thought of another story and have not come back. I would like to say I completed at least one story before I go to school, but that does not seem likely. 

I am so anxious to discover who my roommate is. I just want to check off everything on my list now, but there are a few things that I must wait for. Like, I would like to see what things my roommate all ready has before I go buying everything, but I do not find out who my roommate is until July. On top of that most stores around here do not get their college things until July. 

I have recently been trying to take up responsibilities that I have never taken up before, like, cleaning and taking care of my ENTIRE house, not just my bedroom. This action was brought on by the encouragement of a wednesday night youth group meeting in which my pastor talked on how we should respect our authority, especially if our authority has been anointed by God. He pointed out that God anoints our parents to us. Yes, some fall short of God's plans, but  we should respect His decision by respecting our anointed authorities (our parents) unless what they are trying to get us to do is harmful. Also, I was hoping that an added benefit would be that God would see my hard work, and bless me with a job. I desperately need a job, and I am finding no luck. I have two months to come up with $12,000, and no way of doing so. I have faced the reality that I will have to take out a loan. I have tried applying to scholarships, but so far, no luck. Plus, I have run out of places to find them. If you know of any places, please let me know. Thank you! I have applied to so many places, and my ideal job would be at Dick's Sporting Goods, or Regal Cinemas, but so far I have heard nothing from anyone. I have been having terrible luck. When I go to stores and ask for an application they say I need to find it online. Then I go home and search for hours on their website to try and find the application. Then once I do, I hear nothing back. It seems like these days applications mean nothing anyone. You have to know someone to be employed. Almost everyone I know that has a job knows someone who works where they work that got them the job. It is so disappointing, but I will not give up. After all, I may be the one who slips through the cracks, and defies all odds. I know God will put me in the right place, but God, if you could do that soon it'd be great. :) 

Until then, I am busy with other things, other than attempting to take care of the house. I want to continue trying to learn guitar and drums. I want to continue trying to write songs, as well as my books and movie scripts. I want to do so many things. I want to speak again at church, and this time feel like I did well. I want to perform at church again. I want to do SO much. Sometimes I look at the time I have before I go to Lee and it seems SO long! Sometimes I look at it and think, "How am I suppose to do anything in such little time?" Like I said, my mind is ALL OVER THE PLACE. 

Overall, I just wanted to express the way I felt right now, and I am hoping that I in someway helped someone and that someone else feels this way as well. 

College Assignment #2

Try to stay relaxed, DO NOT PANIC! It will all be okay. Just be on top of things. Stay organized. If you are not, develop a better system. If you have no system, DEVELOP ONE, trust me it helps. Stay in touch with your future roommate once you know who it is. Make sure that no one is spending money to get something the other one has. Money is tight right now, and there is no reason to spend money on unneeded items. Overall, just relax and try and enjoy this time. Spend time with those you love and set up great, strong relationships so that when you move miles away, you still have people you can count on! Good luck!

Grade of Life:
This is worth a small percentage of your grade. Though it can help you immensely, it will not determine your outcome by so much that you fail if you do not complete. However, if you learn to stay calm and on top of things now, things later in life will come much easier than if you fail to do so.








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